Me as a Daddy

Being a daddy is truly a wonderful experience of my life. To be honest, in some ways I think being a daddy is not a tough job to do if you really know what you want for your family and what your responsibilities are, unlike a mother especially when your baby is just few months old. You don’t need to breastfeed or squeeze out milk from your body few times a day to feed your child. It maybe doesn’t concern us physically BUT it also doesn’t give us, the daddy the rights to take for granted or be ignorant just because we don’t have the capability of doing so. I have learnt that moral support is one h*ll of important thing that the least we could give as a daddy which is so simple to do and yet, very easy to forget because sometimes we tend to take it for granted for it’s not of our duties. Yes, sometimes I do make the mistakes. Take things so lightly just because I never experience it. Before this, sometimes I did wonder why my wife always keep feeling so frustrated especially when she could not get at least 3oz for each pumping session. I feel sympathy to her but I still couldn’t understand why with the deep frustration. It’s because I feel it’s unfair to blame herself for that because it’s absolutely unintentional. I told her that her not being able to pump out a lot of milk will never make her a bad mother.

In order for me to understand it, I always do what people normally suggest when you are having difficulties in understanding other people’s situation; just try to put ourselves in their shoes. I know to some extent it still doesn’t solve the problem especially things that we can never experience it on our own, like this breastfeeding thingy. However a little ‘Googling’ efforts might be a great way in order for us to grasp the basic knowledge on any breastfeeding related issues. I am lucky because my wife is a very patient and dedicated Mommy. She never fails to educate me about anything regarding breastfeeding. After a few breastfeeding lessons with my wife and based my own reading, at least now I know the common terms in breastfeeding such as, colostrums, lactation, let-down, engorgement and mcm2 lagila. When talk about breast pump, there are whole lot of other different issues. Types of pump only dah bermacam2 jenis available in market such as single, double, manual, electric for various brands to name a few Medela, Avent, Ameda and byk lagila. Every brand pulak ada macam2 version lak lagi tu, Pump-in-Style both Original & Advanced, Swing, ISIS IQ Uno, Purely Yours la, Symphony, macam2 lagi. According to my wife yg good ones kalau yg hospital grade tapi mahal la. Kalau dpt yg ada ‘let-down’ mode, 2 phase punya pumping pun dah cukup bagus because it imitates breastfeeding really well and thus, makes it really efficient. Kalau kaya sikit lagi boleh beli yg double, much quicker. When it comes to ‘demand & supply’ issue pulak, it could get a little bit confusing but with the help of my wife I managed to get hold the basic concept of it. Pretty surprised huh that I can talk about this? Hahaha..I’m also surprised!I never imagine that I could know all of these stuffs.

However even if we know/learn everything through our reading we still can not ‘feel’ or fully understand the actual feeling because we just don’t have the privilege of experiencing it ourselves. It’s all about the special emotional bond between the baby and the mommy that evolve during the breastfeeding sessions. I really respect my wife because she’s so determine to breastfeed Adam for as long & as much as she can. By all means, I would do anything I can to support my wife to breastfeed our son and for you Adam, you must know that betapa susah payahnya Mommy just to get the best nutrition for you. Trust me; she’s the best Mommy that you could ever have in your life.

Have you ever heard that some people say when you have a baby, especially to the first time parents, sometimes the daddy tend to jealous with his own child because the wife is now giving more attention and spend more time with the baby? Seriously I find it so ridiculous and unacceptable. Why on earth you must get jealous with your own child? How can you ever feel that way to your own child? It’s so NOT cool and fatherly. However now, without my knowing, I’m actually chewing my own words!!!What the h*ll is happening? Seriously sometimes I feel a little bit jealous with my own son because my wife now gives more attention to him. Hahaha..Siut!!!Biar benar. Is it normal? Does anyone experience anything like this? Anyone? No one? So I guess it’s just me la being such a baby?!! OMG!! Seriously I’ve got a big problem here. To be fair, it’s not my intention, it just happens without I realize it. Kadang2 saja2 je buat mende yg bukan2 or cari psl just to attract my wife’s attention. Sometimes I find that my son is actually my own competitor! We fight to get Mommy’s attention and of coursela the best man always wins, who is my SON!!!Hahaha..This is so crazy!!So sorry Adam, Daddy doesn’t mean to. Daddy also doesn’t know what is actually happening but anyway, you are so really good huh, so charming, adorable and always pandai amek hati Mommy, Daddy sendiri pun cair gak. Ces!! Hehehehe..Kadang2 terasa hati tak pasal2 jugak sebab mana taknya I sendiri yg saja2 gatal rasa macam diabaikan walaupun sebenarnya tak. Seriously this is crazy!!! Anyway, I think now I manage to handle it well because I know I have to be rational and I think that it is actually ok (normal?not so sure la) to have a feeling like that but to make the most of it, is absolutely ridiculous and not acceptable. It won’t make anything better because it’s gonna make things more troublesome especially to my wife. Tak pasal2 Mommy pening nak layan kerenah sorang lagi..Hahaha..sorry Sayang kalau tiba2 Abg saja mengada2 cari pasal. Sorry Adam kalau kadang2 Daddy also cari pasal dengan Adam berebut Mommy..hehehe..Daddy bukannya ape, sebab sayangla Daddy buat macam tu =P, boleh? Hahaha..Ade ke pulak macam tu?Tak relevant sungguh la Daddy ni kan. Barula meriah sikit family kita..hehehehe =D

That’s why I said earlier that being a Daddy is truly a wonderful and exciting experience to me. A lot of things happen in my life, be it good, bad, interesting or not, all of it are precious experience that count for something which I believe will make me more matured in life and hopefully it will also make me a better person, husband and a father, insyallah.